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It’s taken me three days and more attempts than I can count to write this.

I want to write about the time that broke me, but quietly gave me the strength to look at life from a completely different perspective.

Stay with me while I write this.

Maybe you’ll find a little bit of yourself in this story too.

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Let’s go back four years.

On paper, life looked beautiful.

My career was thriving.

I had people with me I thought would stay.

I smiled from the heart.

I laughed from my stomach.

I remember thanking God for this life almost every day.

Everything felt like it was finally falling into place.

Or at least, that’s what I believed.

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Looking back now, I realise I was wearing rose-tinted glasses.

Not because life was perfect. But because I had become very good at ignoring what didn’t fit the picture I wanted to believe.

I ignored every feeling that made me uncomfortable.

I ignored the little whispers telling me that something wasn’t right.

I was so consumed by the life I thought I had built that I stopped asking myself a very important question.

Was I actually happy?

I didn’t really think about it. Everything looked good on paper, and my idea of happiness was largely shaped by what I saw on social media.

The whole idea of “self-love” that I saw on Instagram…

I took it a little too seriously.

Good clothes. Good shoes. Regular salon visits. Looking presentable. Feeling accomplished.

I thought that was self-love.

Today, I realise it was only one small part of it.

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But underneath it all, something was missing.

The conversations had become shallow.

The connections lacked depth.

And I stayed because…

I thought this was simply how life was supposed to feel.

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Until one day…

The whispers became louder than the noise around me.

Something wasn’t aligned anymore.

And then…

Everything came crashing down.

Head to part 2…